Saturday, June 28, 2014

Intuition vs. fear and silly odds

I’m going to go on ride to nowhere, wherever I end up, I will create something. Sometimes driving simply allows me to have my 60,000 thoughts a day at a slower pace. Possibly, in my case it’s more like 80,000 thoughts but that’s something for another day. I've got some time for the first time in a while and that means there are some odds to beat. I always wonder where “experts” come up with crazy reasoning about everything in life and try to dissuade folks from going after something they want. Inside of everyone is a powerful voice that says anything is possible. I recall sitting in a room full of people the better part of a decade ago and the authority figure up front basically said that “1 out of 35 of you have a chance to make it and even that one person will fail after 2 years". The voice inside me began to laugh out loud because my intuition always tells me to beat the odds. So far, I have knocked that one out of the park! I plan on defying many many more "odds". That’s not to say that fear doesn't try and creep in at any given moment in life, those are the moments when the thoughts multiply and confusion could set in. These are also the moments when after a little time you weigh in on the intuition vs. fear battle and make a decision. Once a choice is made, you either give into fear or believe in your intuition; passion, love, will, determination, forgiveness, and faith are all the byproducts of trusting the voice inside of you that says “screw the odds”~ We got this!


It doesn't matter if it’s a career choice, a relationship, personal battles, or anything else. If something inside of you tells you it is right, work hard at it and don’t, by any means, allow fear to set any limits on your dreams. The world belongs to the risk takers, the folks who laugh at the experts and go after what they want. Circumstances will come and go; maybe you will doubt yourself because you’re not exactly in the place you want to be. This is a good thing! The fire burns inside and complacency is not an option. I’m there right now, at this place where I have to evaluate and create a way to get to the place I really want to go. Imagination on the big picture and eyes set clearly on what to do right now. Fears and doubts were creeping in for a bit, but they never ever win out when my intuition tells me the three important factors in beating the odds; what I want to do, who I want to share it with, and where I want to go. I am certain of all three! Today perhaps, a few pages get written or an audition comes up or I simply drop down to 40,000 thoughts. No matter what, the direction will be evident. Whoever the experts are can take their story elsewhere, we got this.  Whatever the odds, love your chances and trust your heart!    

Monday, June 23, 2014

ALL OF IT

I went to New York City today. I had no plan, no real reason to go, or even an idea except that I needed to get some clarity. Sounds a little ironic that one would go to the busiest place on earth for clarity I guess, but I simply love it there and when I’m in a rut; New York City or near the ocean is where I need to be. A lot has happened since I last wrote for people to see, quite a bit recently so I chose to act, to get moving back in the direction I need to go in order to be full of life again. I have a whole lot of energy in me and somewhere over the last couple of months I got caught up in something that kept me from flourishing in some incredibly important areas. In fact, I was stopped dead in my tracks recently. I have a fantastic job that I’m proud to do and find many rewards in simply doing it. Also, without a doubt, I have this amazing dream of telling stories; of acting and writing and having an outlet to release all the fears and doubts, experience and joy that goes along with being me. So maybe I did have a plan, a reason, and an idea when I left for the big city. I was in search of something, the connection to myself that will keep me growing into the man I want to be.


In another ironic twist, I ran into an old friend on the bus! We sat next to each other and in approximately 40 minutes engaged in a conversation about life and love and the “knowing” when you’ve found something great; when you’re connected to someone or something that brings out the best in you every single time. It helps you to run on a creative plane and teaches you to really listen and understand the complexities of what you say at any given time. As I walked through this bustling city, with all of its character and "characters", I realized that I have to practice fearlessness when it comes to the considerable gifts I’ve been given. I have to make good on my dreams and confidently walk toward them. I know what I want and who and I want to share it all with; it’s time to put any fears aside and go get it, ALL OF IT. To truly give the best I have in me, there are risks I need to take and risk has never stopped me before.